That really saddens me that a lady who has recently married and is a wonderful ssbbw feels like you do. Especially that you have been so positive in the UK size acceptance movement. I personally think you deserve better for what you have achieved. Let me reassure you that you are not alone. I have personally been in the community as what some would class as a lurker since the mid 90s as a fa and feeder. The people i know and trust [ especially one couple ] are now extremely private about there chosen lifestyle and no references can currently be found on the internet]. Unfortunately being a lady of size is not socially acceptable along with smokers heavily tattooed people or anyone that does not fit into what society says is normal. Let me state again you are not alone but in a minority where everyone is judged by appearance and belief. You are a wonderful lady and my only advice is to be yourself and true friends will see past what they do not understand.
12 years